After the 'I Should Go To Sleep' O'Clock

What happens between "I should go to sleep" o'clock and "I sleep" o'clock.


00:00 I should go to sleep... Oh, I should also paint my nails.

00:05 I start making a new website.

00:45 I find a nice picture of my mom. I start photoshopping it.

02:30 I have photoshopped 3 photos besides the one of my mom.

02:35 I continue with the website.

03:00 I start writing the version 2 of my screenplay.

03:15 I continue with the website.

03:25 I'm hungry. Cooking noodles.

03:45 I continue writing the screenplay.


04:15 I continue with the website.

05:00 I will go to sleep in a moment.

05:05 Oh! I must give the cat his medicine!

05:40 Now I go to sleep. I turn off my computer.

05:45 Oh, I was supposed to paint my nails. I shall do it now.

06:00 I sit on the sofa, waiting for the nail polish to dry.

06:05 I read news with my cellphone.

06:30 I go to bed. And get lots of good ideas for what to do when I wake up.

About 07:15 I sleep.

About Weekend @ Cottage and Some Bigger Dreams

This weekend I spent some time at my classmate's summer cottage. It has become a tradition for my class to spend some quality time once or twice a year at someone's cottage.



I dream about having my own cottage too, or even living in that kind of an environment. Only thing is that I'm not ready (yet) to let go of some habits and opportunities this city life offers. For example, I dislike the idea of having a car. Yet lately I have started to feel so much will to go to driving school and to buy a car. I have an inner contradictory about it, because I really find cars unnecessary in a city and also bad for the environment. On the other hand I have started to feel so much interest for being able to go anywhere without being dependent of the public transportation. Also, I could go to places with my friends where we normally can't go. I'm afraid that the car would make me really lazy. I have seen it happening to so many people. Well, to most drivers.



I have noticed this pattern in my life, that every Autumn I start feeling the need of strong life changes. Or not necessarily such permanent changes, but for example now I just feel like I wanted to do certain things I haven't done in quite a long time. Like I needed so much action, adventure, excitement. Or meeting new interesting people. Or "old" people who just never were that close before and making them closer. For most people summer seems to be "the" time, but to me it's Autumn. Like the birds fly to Southern countries every Autumn, I want to fly too and come back next Spring. Less or more metaphorically speaking. :)

Let's see what it is that will happen. But I definitely need something exciting and enjoyable to bring lightness into this darkening season. I can't stay still.