Film maker's crisis, or catharsis?

The feeling when you had been excited making a highly personal film for a year, and when it's just about to be finished, you suddenly become super insecure, panic and feel like canceling the whole thing. *face palm*

With screenplays this feeling comes to me typically in the middle of the process and is much more bearable than now that the project is already finished. Oh well, if it goes like usually, in few days or weeks I start feeling better again.

I just wonder, why does this horrible feeling come with all the films/screenplays I make? Is it just some sort of artistic suffering I just need to experience at least once during the project? Some sort of catharsis? And do other filmmakers have similar experiences or am I just overly sensitive about my creations?

Feelings About My Documentary Film

For introduction: I'm currently directing my 2nd short documentary film. I have huge amount of roles there: director, screenwriter, editor, performer and art director. Currently we're in post-production and the cut version (not sure what the correct word is in English) should be finished next week. The name of the film is Looking Beyond the Shadows and it tells a story about healing from serious depression.

So, currently my feelings about the movie are really contradictory. Obviously it's a very important, personal film and subject to me. And thanks to my talented group everything has gone well and the material is good, so I have a very good feeling about the film.

The best thing now about editing my new documentary is that I have lots of good material. A typical problem for editors is that there's no enough usable material.

The biggest issue I have editing this is that I'm just so stupidly tired watching my own face and listening myself speaking. xD Now I understand why my wife Chris sometimes says "Can you just shut up for a moment, please?" xD But yeah, it's not because I wouldn't be comfortable with my voice or looks, but because I've been watching/listening myself in total something like 50 hours already. I notice I have some really annoying manners I didn't even know about before. (Also I should have shaved my arm pits.)

Considering that it's been soon a year since I started to work with this film, and that I ended up taking so (too) many roles in it, it's quite understandable that I'm getting tired with the film. I'm sure this is what most filmmakers experience with their projects, but it seems to be a little bit of a tabu to say it aloud. After all, the film is the maker's baby, and a parent supposedly can't talk badly about their child. The film is like a child that you love so much but sometimes you just wish you could get a holiday from it because it can also be extremely annoying. I'm sure that especially screenwriters, producers and directors must experience it a lot because the processes for them is the longest.

Though this film is super dear to me, now I just want it to be finished soon and move to a next project! :)