Film maker's crisis, or catharsis?

The feeling when you had been excited making a highly personal film for a year, and when it's just about to be finished, you suddenly become super insecure, panic and feel like canceling the whole thing. *face palm*

With screenplays this feeling comes to me typically in the middle of the process and is much more bearable than now that the project is already finished. Oh well, if it goes like usually, in few days or weeks I start feeling better again.

I just wonder, why does this horrible feeling come with all the films/screenplays I make? Is it just some sort of artistic suffering I just need to experience at least once during the project? Some sort of catharsis? And do other filmmakers have similar experiences or am I just overly sensitive about my creations?

The Main Ingredients on a Path of Inner Growth

[This writing is connected to my latest post C is for Consciousness.]

The main ingredients you need on every path of inner growth:

1. Have patience towards yourself. No inner change happens in one night. Most of them take years. Also have patience towards those around you who might find your inner change too slow and don't understand that those things won't happen at the same second you decide you want to change. Decision is only the first step, and actually the easiest one. But nobody else can decide your rhythm but yourself. Rush can even ruin it all.
2. Be honest to yourself. Even with the things you didn't want or like to admit about yourself. Nobody said it was supposed to be easy or fun. It never is. Until the good result comes - and it's always worth the struggle!
3. Love yourself. Most of personal problems come from some sort of hole in self esteem, which comes from inability to sincerely love yourself. And we talk about the caring kind of love that a mother would feel towards her child, or a best friend towards her best friend. Not "oh I'm so pretty with my red hair"-superficial love.
4. Accept failure. There comes times when you take many steps backwards. But the failure is permanent only if you give up. Accept the steps backward, breathe, eat an ice cream, and continue again towards your goal.