I dream about having my own cottage too, or even living in that kind of an environment. Only thing is that I'm not ready (yet) to let go of some habits and opportunities this city life offers. For example, I dislike the idea of having a car. Yet lately I have started to feel so much will to go to driving school and to buy a car. I have an inner contradictory about it, because I really find cars unnecessary in a city and also bad for the environment. On the other hand I have started to feel so much interest for being able to go anywhere without being dependent of the public transportation. Also, I could go to places with my friends where we normally can't go. I'm afraid that the car would make me really lazy. I have seen it happening to so many people. Well, to most drivers.
I have noticed this pattern in my life, that every Autumn I start feeling the need of strong life changes. Or not necessarily such permanent changes, but for example now I just feel like I wanted to do certain things I haven't done in quite a long time. Like I needed so much action, adventure, excitement. Or meeting new interesting people. Or "old" people who just never were that close before and making them closer. For most people summer seems to be "the" time, but to me it's Autumn. Like the birds fly to Southern countries every Autumn, I want to fly too and come back next Spring. Less or more metaphorically speaking. :)
Let's see what it is that will happen. But I definitely need something exciting and enjoyable to bring lightness into this darkening season. I can't stay still.
